First you need to know two things about me... 1. my husband and I have been together for 20 years and 2. we decided a very long time ago that we did not want children. So you can imagine our total shock to discover that after avoiding pregnancy for 20 years, and at the age of 36 and 42 we are having a baby!
I have to admit that the first few days were rough. I always believed that if I got pregnant abortion would never be an option, but here I was actually thinking about it. I mean, we've built a life for ourselves that never included children. We're pretty used to travelling when we want, hell, if at midnight we decided it was time for an ice cream we just went and got it. My dilemma was whether or not I wanted my life to change so drastically.
I know that my husband would have preferred that I did not have this baby but he also assured me that he would support whatever decision I made.
So, first chance I got I headed to my doctor and had her confirm the results of the home test. Confirmed. I was officially pregnant. Now the decision to keep the baby or not was real. Ultimately my decision was based on which option I could live with. Both were permanent. So in the end I decided that I couldn't live with myself if I had an abortion, so I didn't.
I'm now 5 months pregnant and am actually getting excited about it. I'll find out tomorrow if it's a boy or girl.
